thirty: three zero   Well, I’m thirty.  I have officially begun my 31st year.  Physically here on this earth. Honestly, I was excited to turn 30.  I know, right?  Who am I? However, I had this picture in my head when I was younger of what a 30 year old was supposed to be.  Not … Continue reading thirty


It’s overwhelming some days. Unbearable, actually. Some days I have this indescribable guilt for being happy. When a loved one dies, they don’t hand you a “Grieving for Dummies” book and wish you luck. There are no set rules or even guidelines on how to grieve, how long you should grieve, or what grieving looks … Continue reading guilt


embracing uncertainty. the unknown. So I usually have blog posts drafted on my phone in my notes (I actually already have my next one drafted and ready to go), but for this one, I don't.  I only have those 4 words.  Embracing uncertainty. The unknown. For the past couple of years, the word "embrace" has … Continue reading embrace


6 months. Half a year. 180 days. A couple of months ago, I was given the best analogy from a dear friend for the feeling I've been experiencing the past few of months.  You know, the feeling when you have been out in the frigid cold, your fingers and toes get so cold and numb, … Continue reading six


All the firsts, each milestone anniversary, birthday, life event... I'm constantly made aware of everyone's... as much as I'm truly happy for them, it's so bittersweet. I chose to do life with you thinking I would get to share all of those with you.  But I won't.  One day, hopefully, someday, it will be with … Continue reading bittersweet


Our purpose of this blog was to shed light on our lives and hopefully help others going through a similar situation. However, since Kenny's passing, my personal hope for this blog is to show anyone who takes the time to read it that life is never perfect, and it is never like you hope and … Continue reading loyalty